A new leaf

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

It's bad enough that I've been able to endure ignoring the counsel of the years. Perhaps the things of my youth have been too precious to concede. So greatly do I esteem the things of my youth that I cling to such obsolete notions long after their true value has since been ground to dust.

I always knew that my spirit was strong enough to endure tumult from certain fronts... But weak on other fronts. This I can not afford. An open mind is like a fortress with its gates unbarred. As I was taught... weakness can not be tolerated. If uncovered it will be used against you.

Dark imaginings now that's something I'm good at... maybe I'm just fatigued and lonely?

No I'm not. I'm a bit chargrined but I'm hale and, mostly, hardy.

In my defense it has never been so imperative before... living in an ivory tower has a way of shielding you from the realities of life... kaya nga nag call center diba?... Plus my 'inherent' survivability makes me less than willing to adopt change. C'mon I survived 23 years already... why fix what ain't (I thought) broken? But my time in Arellano taught me much. The fundamental imperatives of my da sein have changed but they are no less imperative.

I thank whatever gods maybe for my unconquerable soul... but maybe its time I showed the world just how unconquerable my soul is...

Did not Aristotle say that a hidden virtue is no virtue at all?

Therefore, a hidden vice is not a vice either...

Ergo, if one hides his vices and virtues he winds up with being an empty person.

Seeming doesn't make much sense anymore...

Mother / Sis / Kucil ... I'm sorry...

P.S. I am Desiderata... I will do what is necessary.