Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Now I like La Salle!!!
Damn Youtube.
I saw someone on youtube and now I want to get inside La Salle daym.
I saw someone on youtube and now I want to get inside La Salle daym.
Ang Hindi Pinaghirapan, Hindi Pinanghihinayangan
(Taken from Hannah Carmela Neri's Blog Dated Aug 2009... just giving credit where its due)
Have you ever felt unappreciated/ underappreciated by a person (let's say, a lover, a close friend, a co-worker, or your boss?)
Have you ever felt like you've given too much...been the best (insert "role" here)- and yet you were rejected, demeaned, abandoned?
Have you become so bitter about unrequited love/ overlooked accomplishments? Maybe you've felt like you gave "too much of yourself", played the martyr, been the altruist. Perhaps we've hated people who didn't love us the way they "should".
Don't you think that perhaps.... you've "shared too much of yourself"?
Are you always available? Always there at every beck and call? Always willing to give everything to that person? Why can't that person appreciate or love you for what you do for them?
Anything in oversupply loses its value.
Anything that is always available, and available in oversupply, even if it is good, loses its value. It is not helpful to have too much, even of a good thing.
An old Tagalog proverb says, "Ang hindi pinaghirapan, hindi pinanghihinayangan."
When a good thing could be had easily, it is not treasured. What you get without much sacrifice, is not given much value. It is often advisable to let others work and even pay, for the privileges you extend to them.
"He who is full loathes honey, but to the hungry, even the bitter tastes sweet." (Proverbs 27:7)
Have you ever felt unappreciated/ underappreciated by a person (let's say, a lover, a close friend, a co-worker, or your boss?)
Have you ever felt like you've given too much...been the best (insert "role" here)- and yet you were rejected, demeaned, abandoned?
Have you become so bitter about unrequited love/ overlooked accomplishments? Maybe you've felt like you gave "too much of yourself", played the martyr, been the altruist. Perhaps we've hated people who didn't love us the way they "should".
Don't you think that perhaps.... you've "shared too much of yourself"?
Are you always available? Always there at every beck and call? Always willing to give everything to that person? Why can't that person appreciate or love you for what you do for them?
Anything in oversupply loses its value.
Anything that is always available, and available in oversupply, even if it is good, loses its value. It is not helpful to have too much, even of a good thing.
An old Tagalog proverb says, "Ang hindi pinaghirapan, hindi pinanghihinayangan."
When a good thing could be had easily, it is not treasured. What you get without much sacrifice, is not given much value. It is often advisable to let others work and even pay, for the privileges you extend to them.
"He who is full loathes honey, but to the hungry, even the bitter tastes sweet." (Proverbs 27:7)
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Ending the Prescient Dream
Wake up, its over.
Perhaps its time to finally emerge from my Prescient Dream, its been three semesters and I’m fairly certain that it achieved it’s purpose. I got what I wanted and it no longer serves any value. Its healing virtues have long since expired. Other than consume my swiftly diminishing energies it does nothing.
I am Forensic, I don’t need the Prescient Dream to retain that.
I am ________, I was already that long before I came here. But the Dream forces me to hide it. I'll unveil it once again.
I am _______, even the Dream can't disguise it.
I am something else, and it will end with the loss of the Dream. But I begrudge not the loss.
I am already hale and hardy, I don’t need any proofs or laurels to know that.
It’s time to lose the Prescient Dream. This is Arellano after all, one of the most cosmopolitan (at least on the surface) communities I’ve ever known. Seeming is simply unbecoming of me.
It’s time to fire up the old engines and revive the old programming.
It’s time to wake up from my long rest and get back on track.
And if I’ve clawed myself back to full consciousness you are with me, then I will cherish you all the more.
P.S. Missing You.
Perhaps its time to finally emerge from my Prescient Dream, its been three semesters and I’m fairly certain that it achieved it’s purpose. I got what I wanted and it no longer serves any value. Its healing virtues have long since expired. Other than consume my swiftly diminishing energies it does nothing.
I am Forensic, I don’t need the Prescient Dream to retain that.
I am ________, I was already that long before I came here. But the Dream forces me to hide it. I'll unveil it once again.
I am _______, even the Dream can't disguise it.
I am something else, and it will end with the loss of the Dream. But I begrudge not the loss.
I am already hale and hardy, I don’t need any proofs or laurels to know that.
It’s time to lose the Prescient Dream. This is Arellano after all, one of the most cosmopolitan (at least on the surface) communities I’ve ever known. Seeming is simply unbecoming of me.
It’s time to fire up the old engines and revive the old programming.
It’s time to wake up from my long rest and get back on track.
And if I’ve clawed myself back to full consciousness you are with me, then I will cherish you all the more.
P.S. Missing You.
Thank You for the Music.
I know you’ll never see this but I’ll say it anyway.
Thank You for the Music.
Just as your other songs have fuelled me in my moments of deep desolation, I’ll take this one with me to the next stage of my life.
Even if it doesn’t do what its supposed to do. I will still cherish it most of all. It is my song, not meant for MTV, not dedicated to someone else, mine. My song.
It is my song because you wrote it for me (with my help). It’s my song because it contains a rare distillate of the unadulterated truth. I even helped play it.
Sigh…
Come what may, perdition be my fate. Thank you for this.
P.S. I’m still waiting for the mp3 version
Thank You for the Music.
Just as your other songs have fuelled me in my moments of deep desolation, I’ll take this one with me to the next stage of my life.
Even if it doesn’t do what its supposed to do. I will still cherish it most of all. It is my song, not meant for MTV, not dedicated to someone else, mine. My song.
It is my song because you wrote it for me (with my help). It’s my song because it contains a rare distillate of the unadulterated truth. I even helped play it.
Sigh…
Come what may, perdition be my fate. Thank you for this.
P.S. I’m still waiting for the mp3 version
LENTE
Do or die people LENTE is coming to Arellano on November 14, 2009.
After more than 6 months of false starts, storms, the bar and other delays, its all systems Go! Go! Go!
I have a non-me Chairpersons to take over the position. We’ll be doing advertising and booth work starting enrollment.
Finally, we can bring the LEgal Network for Truthful Elections to our school. Who knows maybe Arellano volunteers can actually make a difference in the coming elections?
After more than 6 months of false starts, storms, the bar and other delays, its all systems Go! Go! Go!
I have a non-me Chairpersons to take over the position. We’ll be doing advertising and booth work starting enrollment.
Finally, we can bring the LEgal Network for Truthful Elections to our school. Who knows maybe Arellano volunteers can actually make a difference in the coming elections?
Friday, October 30, 2009
October 27, 2009
Wow some title huh?
Point is we had a Forensic dinner that night. And it was my last exam. Its funny but even if Forensics numbers were but a shadow of its former self, I always preferred quality over quantity.
FIVE, LIMA, GO, SINKO. That’s our entire rank and file ATM.
Not that it really matters. We have mother Hayz, Baby Girl, Baby D and some insurance marketer. Then we have a half-extinguished spirit of fire. Oh wait we also have um… ‘Benefactors’. Hopefully we can pull off a major marketing campaign and recruit new members… Trust me, if I’m still around next sem… we will definitely need more people.
Come what may I love these people. They give me hope that perhaps my dreams can still come true.
Dinner, then drinks, we should definitely do that again.
Point is we had a Forensic dinner that night. And it was my last exam. Its funny but even if Forensics numbers were but a shadow of its former self, I always preferred quality over quantity.
FIVE, LIMA, GO, SINKO. That’s our entire rank and file ATM.
Not that it really matters. We have mother Hayz, Baby Girl, Baby D and some insurance marketer. Then we have a half-extinguished spirit of fire. Oh wait we also have um… ‘Benefactors’. Hopefully we can pull off a major marketing campaign and recruit new members… Trust me, if I’m still around next sem… we will definitely need more people.
Come what may I love these people. They give me hope that perhaps my dreams can still come true.
Dinner, then drinks, we should definitely do that again.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
A reflection from the Palatir.
Love, so I'm told, is an extremely powerful emotion; it can be irresistible and people are often bound to pursue their love interests. It usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person.
When not reciprocated love is an obsession, it is destructive and will ultimately lead you down the road to perdition.
When forlorn it can lead to some very impressive displays of heroism.
Love entails as certain level of mutuality, fidelity and respect for one another. It is also predicated, usually, by honesty and transparency. When these prerequisites are lacking, I don’t know what you call it.
But enough about “Love”, its prelims time and I for one am bent on regaining my old self. Tomorrow I’ll find out if I can finally, after almost 3 years, move on or if I’m still stuck in my crazy (though thoroughly entertaining) prescient dream.
When not reciprocated love is an obsession, it is destructive and will ultimately lead you down the road to perdition.
When forlorn it can lead to some very impressive displays of heroism.
Love entails as certain level of mutuality, fidelity and respect for one another. It is also predicated, usually, by honesty and transparency. When these prerequisites are lacking, I don’t know what you call it.
But enough about “Love”, its prelims time and I for one am bent on regaining my old self. Tomorrow I’ll find out if I can finally, after almost 3 years, move on or if I’m still stuck in my crazy (though thoroughly entertaining) prescient dream.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
I will not backdown.
To All members of the Arellano Law Forensic Guild, and by extension the Arellano Community, (I guess)
This has been shaping up to be a hell of year. I'd know I've been at the Vanguard of everything.
Warren has left us as do many esteemed members who are now about to take the bar. Good luck to you. May you pass and come back here to teach us some more :)
Quite a few of our most competent members are now committed elsewhere.
I can promise you this though, whatever my other commitments are you are my primordial concern. Although I trust that you need no reassurance of that.
Well, interestingly enough we find ourselves in an fascinating situation right now. Is it impossible? Perhaps, no one in our community has ever attempted this before although I must aver that this is because no one has dared to try in the past. I haven't the luxury to be intimidated. Not that I am since we've seen what we are capable of when we work together.
Over a year ago I made a promise to this organization and I asked for you commitment likewise. This is my dream and I think you know how hard I fought and continue to fight for my dreams.
This has been shaping up to be a hell of year. I'd know I've been at the Vanguard of everything.
Warren has left us as do many esteemed members who are now about to take the bar. Good luck to you. May you pass and come back here to teach us some more :)
Quite a few of our most competent members are now committed elsewhere.
I can promise you this though, whatever my other commitments are you are my primordial concern. Although I trust that you need no reassurance of that.
Well, interestingly enough we find ourselves in an fascinating situation right now. Is it impossible? Perhaps, no one in our community has ever attempted this before although I must aver that this is because no one has dared to try in the past. I haven't the luxury to be intimidated. Not that I am since we've seen what we are capable of when we work together.
Over a year ago I made a promise to this organization and I asked for you commitment likewise. This is my dream and I think you know how hard I fought and continue to fight for my dreams.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Tommorow might not come, by then it will be to late
Francis speaks on May 20, 2009 0045 Hours.
Later we are going to debate a matter of Transcendental National Importance. LIBRT Naturalized Citizens should be eligible for all elective offices. Wow this is SOOO important to the nation. Come one people as if anyone would actually elect a naturalized Filipino even if they wanted to.
This is a country where knee-jerk nationalism is the name of the game. We beat our breasts in indigations when the Greek-English dictionary defined Filipina as Domestic helper. Yet we, as a people, are responsible for creating the conditions that force our people to become overseas Filipino workers. We scoff at those who speak in English, we brand them conyo and accuse them of colonial mentality. Then we are appalled that barristers flunk becuase of poor english comprehension. We turn a blind eye on the fact that one of our fastests growing industries in Manila is the so-called "Last Minute Coaching" for Nursing board exam takers. Have we forgotten that most of those Nurse aspirants will take those exams with dreams of nursing Americans, Canadians or Europeans?
I expect that people will applaud hollow paens to Nationalism and at the same time ignore the true spirit behind it. To be Nationalistic is to advocate the fulfillment of your Nation. To be Nationalistic is the burdened right of EVERY Filipino.
I should stop before I recite the Panatang Makabayan :))
This debate will be forced communication.
This debate will be the first step in the rough road that leads to the Stars. (Ad Astra Per Aspera)In altum vola the second time around (hopefully).
Be that as it may, Hayz, Ervin and I are tasked with advocating this motion.
We can not always choose who or what we must advocate. But we can always choose how zealously we advocate.
I am appealing to the Arellano Community to please pray for us. I know you all expect much of us. Know that we will do our uttermost to fulfill ur expectations. [And hopefully win ;)]
Whatever happens later is God's Will.
All I can hope for is that my deeds tommorow will be for
His greater glory.
>
Later we are going to debate a matter of Transcendental National Importance. LIBRT Naturalized Citizens should be eligible for all elective offices. Wow this is SOOO important to the nation. Come one people as if anyone would actually elect a naturalized Filipino even if they wanted to.
This is a country where knee-jerk nationalism is the name of the game. We beat our breasts in indigations when the Greek-English dictionary defined Filipina as Domestic helper. Yet we, as a people, are responsible for creating the conditions that force our people to become overseas Filipino workers. We scoff at those who speak in English, we brand them conyo and accuse them of colonial mentality. Then we are appalled that barristers flunk becuase of poor english comprehension. We turn a blind eye on the fact that one of our fastests growing industries in Manila is the so-called "Last Minute Coaching" for Nursing board exam takers. Have we forgotten that most of those Nurse aspirants will take those exams with dreams of nursing Americans, Canadians or Europeans?
I expect that people will applaud hollow paens to Nationalism and at the same time ignore the true spirit behind it. To be Nationalistic is to advocate the fulfillment of your Nation. To be Nationalistic is the burdened right of EVERY Filipino.
I should stop before I recite the Panatang Makabayan :))
This debate will be forced communication.
This debate will be the first step in the rough road that leads to the Stars. (Ad Astra Per Aspera)In altum vola the second time around (hopefully).
Be that as it may, Hayz, Ervin and I are tasked with advocating this motion.
We can not always choose who or what we must advocate. But we can always choose how zealously we advocate.
I am appealing to the Arellano Community to please pray for us. I know you all expect much of us. Know that we will do our uttermost to fulfill ur expectations. [And hopefully win ;)]
Whatever happens later is God's Will.
All I can hope for is that my deeds tommorow will be for
His greater glory.
>
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Desires
A wise woman once told me that the key to contentment in life is to stoping wanting. The more you want the more you are frustrated when you can't have what you want. After all, the old adage 'You can't have everything' applies to me as much as the next guy. In other words, one of the lynchpins of happiness is to desire only what you can realisitically have.
THEN WHY THE HELL DO I STLL WANT THE IMPOSSIBLE? Why do I covet what can never be mine?
Oh I know! I can blame my family for imposing utterly unreasonable expectations on me. and believe me this particular expecation was WAY unreasonable from the start. I'm not the only one whose's heartbroken over this.
I can blame facebook for messing up a very important aspect of my life (that I can keep my different worlds seperate). Today two parts of my life came crashing together in a most undesirable way. After today my life will never be the same again. I hope the one who caused it is very, very, very happy. But I forgive her, she does not yet realize the harm she caused.
I can also blame myself, because of late I've been very, very frustrated...
But It's alright, It's OK. I'm so much better _______ ___ :D
THEN WHY THE HELL DO I STLL WANT THE IMPOSSIBLE? Why do I covet what can never be mine?
Oh I know! I can blame my family for imposing utterly unreasonable expectations on me. and believe me this particular expecation was WAY unreasonable from the start. I'm not the only one whose's heartbroken over this.
I can blame facebook for messing up a very important aspect of my life (that I can keep my different worlds seperate). Today two parts of my life came crashing together in a most undesirable way. After today my life will never be the same again. I hope the one who caused it is very, very, very happy. But I forgive her, she does not yet realize the harm she caused.
I can also blame myself, because of late I've been very, very frustrated...
But It's alright, It's OK. I'm so much better _______ ___ :D
The last few days
Over the last few days, I've met the people who have defined the last ten years of my life. Its almost amazing how different those stages of my life had been. Maybe I really am a doppelganger like I always claimed.
For starters, my first trip of the day was to visit my old haunts in Katipunan. A couple of old friends were invited to my sister's birthday party. Well that was interesting, Facebook makes connecting to people easier than ever. Since they haven't been to my place in years I was dragooned into shepherding them to La Loma. Regrettably prior appointments got in the way and I wound up being a delivery guy instead of a shepherd. Still seeing them is always good a remind of my Loyola School days.
As a result I was running around Greenhills with a pink balloon and more bags than I had arms. April, who I met for the first time, must have gotten a very weird impression of me. In my defense I was totally stressed out in um, hostile territory, plus I was having an insane time since that was the first time that my old High School barkada had been infiltrated by a foreign element. Well... as of press time my friends are in their respective happy places. Lance is showing his true grit and Chinese smarts being all bussinessdude-like back in his home province. Paolo is doing well too. Heck I'm not doing so bad either. Even Mia has a nice cushy job. Is it just me or did we all actually improve with age?
We definitely have gone a long way from our geeky HS pursuits. We still have fond memories of those days and frankly we'd love to dive back into our old lives but reality dictates that we had to move on. Still we managed to set a boys night out. Daym, do I have to wear my glasses to complete my look?
On Monday I'm meeting someone to discuss a matter of transcendental national importance, a matter that for better or worse will begin to resolve itself on May 20. I hope she had a lot of rest where she came from because she's in for a firestorm. That's right people, Hayz is back and she's on the ANC team :) . Plus we have a couple of 'lesser' competitions coming up in the next couple of months.
SCeeing - (v.) hanging out in the SC office pretty much the whole day. I've been doing that a lot lately. Well things are moving at the SC about as well as can be expected. We are becoming regular fixtures in that little room but then that's to be expected because ahem, you already know why. Our little Starbucks club has really gone a long way... in more ways that one. However, political success apparently comes at the exclusion of other forms of fulfillment. Although I'm just speaking for myself.
At the end of this day I go to bed and wonder how I should feel. Co'z, the last ten years of my life just flashed in front of me and I can't believe those years were lived by the same person. Plus I’ve got something on my plate that is altogether overwhelming…
For starters, my first trip of the day was to visit my old haunts in Katipunan. A couple of old friends were invited to my sister's birthday party. Well that was interesting, Facebook makes connecting to people easier than ever. Since they haven't been to my place in years I was dragooned into shepherding them to La Loma. Regrettably prior appointments got in the way and I wound up being a delivery guy instead of a shepherd. Still seeing them is always good a remind of my Loyola School days.
As a result I was running around Greenhills with a pink balloon and more bags than I had arms. April, who I met for the first time, must have gotten a very weird impression of me. In my defense I was totally stressed out in um, hostile territory, plus I was having an insane time since that was the first time that my old High School barkada had been infiltrated by a foreign element. Well... as of press time my friends are in their respective happy places. Lance is showing his true grit and Chinese smarts being all bussinessdude-like back in his home province. Paolo is doing well too. Heck I'm not doing so bad either. Even Mia has a nice cushy job. Is it just me or did we all actually improve with age?
We definitely have gone a long way from our geeky HS pursuits. We still have fond memories of those days and frankly we'd love to dive back into our old lives but reality dictates that we had to move on. Still we managed to set a boys night out. Daym, do I have to wear my glasses to complete my look?
On Monday I'm meeting someone to discuss a matter of transcendental national importance, a matter that for better or worse will begin to resolve itself on May 20. I hope she had a lot of rest where she came from because she's in for a firestorm. That's right people, Hayz is back and she's on the ANC team :) . Plus we have a couple of 'lesser' competitions coming up in the next couple of months.
SCeeing - (v.) hanging out in the SC office pretty much the whole day. I've been doing that a lot lately. Well things are moving at the SC about as well as can be expected. We are becoming regular fixtures in that little room but then that's to be expected because ahem, you already know why. Our little Starbucks club has really gone a long way... in more ways that one. However, political success apparently comes at the exclusion of other forms of fulfillment. Although I'm just speaking for myself.
At the end of this day I go to bed and wonder how I should feel. Co'z, the last ten years of my life just flashed in front of me and I can't believe those years were lived by the same person. Plus I’ve got something on my plate that is altogether overwhelming…
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Summer
Its been a while,
I just spent the evening teaching something I know next to nothing about. Got that strange feeling of being the one-eyed guy leading the blind.
But you know what they say; in the land of the blind the cyclops is King!
Oh yeah Shout out to madame prime in Cebu
I just spent the evening teaching something I know next to nothing about. Got that strange feeling of being the one-eyed guy leading the blind.
But you know what they say; in the land of the blind the cyclops is King!
Oh yeah Shout out to madame prime in Cebu
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Life imitates farce - Richard Gephardt
*N.B. While webcrawling for this saturday's um... 'exercise' I ran into this pretty compelling stuff in light of recent developments...
_________
Mr. Speaker and members of the House, I stood on this floor yesterday and implored all of us to say that the politics of slash-and-burn must end. I implored all of you that we must turn away from the politics of personal destruction and return to the politics of values.
It is with that same passion that I say to all of you today that the gentleman from Louisiana, Bob Livingston, is a worthy and good and honorable man.
I believe his decision to retire is a terrible capitulation to the negative forces that are consuming our political system and our country.
And I pray with all my heart that he will reconsider this decision.
Our founding fathers created a system of government of men, not of angels. No one standing in this House today can pass a Puritanical test of purity that some are demanding that our elected leaders take.
If we demand that mere mortals live up to this standard, we will see our seats of government lay empty, and we will see the best, most able people unfairly cast out of public service.
We need to stop destroying imperfect people at the altar of an unobtainable morality.
We need to start living up to the standards which the public, in its infinite wisdom, understands that imperfect people must strive towards, but too often fall short.
We are now rapidly descending into a politics where life imitates farce. Fratricide dominates our public debate and America is held hostage to tactics of smear and fear.
Let all of us here today say no to resignation, no to impeachment, no to hatred, no to intolerance of each other, and no to vicious self-righteousness.
We need to start healing. We need to start binding up our wounds. We need to end this downward spiral which will culminate in the death of representative democracy.
I believe this healing can start today by changing the course we've begun.
This is exactly why we need this today to be bipartisan. This is why we ask the opportunity to vote on a bipartisan censure resolution, to begin the process of healing our nation and healing our people.
We are on the brink of the abyss. The only way we stop this insanity is through the force of our own will.
The only way we stop this spiral is for all of us to finally say -- enough.
Let us step back from the abyss and let's begin a new politics of respect and fairness and decency which raises what has come before.
May God have mercy on this Congress and may Congress have the wisdom and the courage and the goodness to save itself today.
_________
Mr. Speaker and members of the House, I stood on this floor yesterday and implored all of us to say that the politics of slash-and-burn must end. I implored all of you that we must turn away from the politics of personal destruction and return to the politics of values.
It is with that same passion that I say to all of you today that the gentleman from Louisiana, Bob Livingston, is a worthy and good and honorable man.
I believe his decision to retire is a terrible capitulation to the negative forces that are consuming our political system and our country.
And I pray with all my heart that he will reconsider this decision.
Our founding fathers created a system of government of men, not of angels. No one standing in this House today can pass a Puritanical test of purity that some are demanding that our elected leaders take.
If we demand that mere mortals live up to this standard, we will see our seats of government lay empty, and we will see the best, most able people unfairly cast out of public service.
We need to stop destroying imperfect people at the altar of an unobtainable morality.
We need to start living up to the standards which the public, in its infinite wisdom, understands that imperfect people must strive towards, but too often fall short.
We are now rapidly descending into a politics where life imitates farce. Fratricide dominates our public debate and America is held hostage to tactics of smear and fear.
Let all of us here today say no to resignation, no to impeachment, no to hatred, no to intolerance of each other, and no to vicious self-righteousness.
We need to start healing. We need to start binding up our wounds. We need to end this downward spiral which will culminate in the death of representative democracy.
I believe this healing can start today by changing the course we've begun.
This is exactly why we need this today to be bipartisan. This is why we ask the opportunity to vote on a bipartisan censure resolution, to begin the process of healing our nation and healing our people.
We are on the brink of the abyss. The only way we stop this insanity is through the force of our own will.
The only way we stop this spiral is for all of us to finally say -- enough.
Let us step back from the abyss and let's begin a new politics of respect and fairness and decency which raises what has come before.
May God have mercy on this Congress and may Congress have the wisdom and the courage and the goodness to save itself today.
ANC round 2?
There will be no Warren. The monkey will take the bar this summer (hindi po pwede ang barista? )
In all likelihood there will be no Kucil. Let mother focus on taking her review subjects.
Likewise there will be no Francis. I don't know the events of the past sem have left me unsettled / distressed in a way I can't describe.
I don't know if I can muster the same level of elan and bravado that I had last year.
I don't know if I can muster the energy I had last year
I don't know if I can
I don't know
I don't even know if I should.
P.S. Of course I know I'm just not willing to admit it to myself just yet.
In all likelihood there will be no Kucil. Let mother focus on taking her review subjects.
Likewise there will be no Francis. I don't know the events of the past sem have left me unsettled / distressed in a way I can't describe.
I don't know if I can muster the same level of elan and bravado that I had last year.
I don't know if I can muster the energy I had last year
I don't know if I can
I don't know
I don't even know if I should.
P.S. Of course I know I'm just not willing to admit it to myself just yet.
The World's a playground.
The World's a playground. You knew that when you're a kid but somewhere along the line everyone forgets it.
I've been carrying that around in my Facebook for a while I think. So bloody true, for my part I've forgotten that it is a playground, my playground. Lately I've been complicating life with too many concerns when in fact in the end I only have one true concern at this point; The bar.
Hard to admit but beyond that miserable eye-of-a-needle sieve called the bar all other concerns seem minute and secondary.
God knows I've meet enough barristers who are worried about thier chances at the bar to know that not even the most arrogant and self-deluded can take the bar foregranted.
Am I ready for the bar? Obviously not!
Will I be ready by 2011? Not at the rate I'm going!
That being said I need to take this whole law school gig a bit more seriously.
That being said as well, I need to get back to my 1st sem mentality.
Law School is like politics and love.
a.) Expect only that which you yourself are willing to give.
b.) Giving does not mean you will receive.
c.) The important thing is to enjoy what you are doing
d.) or if you aren't enjoying it at least know why you are still doing it
e.) cape lucum et fac vestigium
I've been carrying that around in my Facebook for a while I think. So bloody true, for my part I've forgotten that it is a playground, my playground. Lately I've been complicating life with too many concerns when in fact in the end I only have one true concern at this point; The bar.
Hard to admit but beyond that miserable eye-of-a-needle sieve called the bar all other concerns seem minute and secondary.
God knows I've meet enough barristers who are worried about thier chances at the bar to know that not even the most arrogant and self-deluded can take the bar foregranted.
Am I ready for the bar? Obviously not!
Will I be ready by 2011? Not at the rate I'm going!
That being said I need to take this whole law school gig a bit more seriously.
That being said as well, I need to get back to my 1st sem mentality.
Law School is like politics and love.
a.) Expect only that which you yourself are willing to give.
b.) Giving does not mean you will receive.
c.) The important thing is to enjoy what you are doing
d.) or if you aren't enjoying it at least know why you are still doing it
e.) cape lucum et fac vestigium
Thursday, February 5, 2009
To whom it may concern,
!Usted ha ganado mi respecto
Espero ganarle de usted un día!
Semper Fidelis ka na rin.
Espero ganarle de usted un día!
Semper Fidelis ka na rin.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
It's the Year of the Ox,
Since I can't decide which spelling is appropriate Kung Hei Fat Choi!!!
A new year always brings new tidings. Or at least its supposed to :)
Anyway it does. Once more I am challenged to transcend my often self-imposed limitations.
Warren, knows what I'm talking about... What the heck is a reply speech? dude if you do it next week it will be the first time I'll see one. And I'm supposed to be a 'veteran'.
If you're definition of veteran is someone who got shot at, then I'm that! But if you mean an experienced hardy and capable trooper... Well I don't think so.
Well its not impossible. I won't be overconfident but I won't be a doubting Thomas either. I will exercise due dilligence and hopefully whoever else I get paired with will do so as well.
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snow. LOL.
The year of the Ox is a travelling year for me too. I don't know yet. But from the looks of things I'll be making at least two out of the country trips this year. I like travelling so that bodes well for me.
SO much to do. So bloody much to do. I have no idea why I spent today the way I did. I must have really lost my mind [at last].
Hopefully the winds of change will find me in better shape to do my singular imperative: STUDY FOR THE MIDTERMS!!!
Good luck to all people taking thier midterms.
I'll say one Salve Regina for your intentions people (For most of you that will be grades no wouldn't it?]
A new year always brings new tidings. Or at least its supposed to :)
Anyway it does. Once more I am challenged to transcend my often self-imposed limitations.
Warren, knows what I'm talking about... What the heck is a reply speech? dude if you do it next week it will be the first time I'll see one. And I'm supposed to be a 'veteran'.
If you're definition of veteran is someone who got shot at, then I'm that! But if you mean an experienced hardy and capable trooper... Well I don't think so.
Well its not impossible. I won't be overconfident but I won't be a doubting Thomas either. I will exercise due dilligence and hopefully whoever else I get paired with will do so as well.
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snow. LOL.
The year of the Ox is a travelling year for me too. I don't know yet. But from the looks of things I'll be making at least two out of the country trips this year. I like travelling so that bodes well for me.
SO much to do. So bloody much to do. I have no idea why I spent today the way I did. I must have really lost my mind [at last].
Hopefully the winds of change will find me in better shape to do my singular imperative: STUDY FOR THE MIDTERMS!!!
Good luck to all people taking thier midterms.
I'll say one Salve Regina for your intentions people (For most of you that will be grades no wouldn't it?]
Monday, January 19, 2009
Because its 7AM, I haven't slept and I'm still studying
Grabbed from Trish Cruz. It's a tug at your heartstrings.
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From page 100 of Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Wood".
“… So I made up my mind I was going to find someone who would love me unconditionally three hundred and sixty-five days a year. I was still in elementary school at that time — fifth or sixth grade — but I made up my mind once and for all.”
“Wow,” I said. “And did your search pay off?”
“That’s the hard part,” said Midori. She watched the rising smoke for a while, thinking. “I guess I’ve been waiting so long I’m looking for perfection. That makes it tough.“
“Waiting for the perfect love?”
“No, even I know better than that. I’m looking for selfishness. Perfect selfishness. Like, say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortcake. And you stop everything you’re doing and run out and buy it for me. And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and hold this strawberry shortcake out to me. And I say I don’t want it anymore and throw it out the window. That’s what I’m looking for.”
“I’m not sure that has anything to do with love,” I said with some amazement.
“It does,” she said. “You just don’t know it. There are times in a girl’s life when things like that are incredibly important.”
“Things like throwing strawberry shortcake out the window?”
“Exactly. And when I do it, I want the man to apologize to me. ‘Now I see, Midori. What a fool I’ve been! I should have known that you would lose your desire for strawberry shortcake. I have all the intelligence and sensitivity of a piece of donkey shit. To make it up to you, I’ll go out and buy you something else. What would you like? Chocolate mousse? Cheesecake?’”
“So then what.”
“So then I’d give him all the love he deserves for what he’s done.”
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From page 100 of Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Wood".
“… So I made up my mind I was going to find someone who would love me unconditionally three hundred and sixty-five days a year. I was still in elementary school at that time — fifth or sixth grade — but I made up my mind once and for all.”
“Wow,” I said. “And did your search pay off?”
“That’s the hard part,” said Midori. She watched the rising smoke for a while, thinking. “I guess I’ve been waiting so long I’m looking for perfection. That makes it tough.“
“Waiting for the perfect love?”
“No, even I know better than that. I’m looking for selfishness. Perfect selfishness. Like, say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortcake. And you stop everything you’re doing and run out and buy it for me. And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and hold this strawberry shortcake out to me. And I say I don’t want it anymore and throw it out the window. That’s what I’m looking for.”
“I’m not sure that has anything to do with love,” I said with some amazement.
“It does,” she said. “You just don’t know it. There are times in a girl’s life when things like that are incredibly important.”
“Things like throwing strawberry shortcake out the window?”
“Exactly. And when I do it, I want the man to apologize to me. ‘Now I see, Midori. What a fool I’ve been! I should have known that you would lose your desire for strawberry shortcake. I have all the intelligence and sensitivity of a piece of donkey shit. To make it up to you, I’ll go out and buy you something else. What would you like? Chocolate mousse? Cheesecake?’”
“So then what.”
“So then I’d give him all the love he deserves for what he’s done.”
Sunday, January 18, 2009
In Memoriam
Yesterday I was at Ecom together with the usual suspect: Kucil. We were joined by Trissy, MJ and Victor. Nothing much out of the ordinary there, we were law students; at one point or another we would have to study. Actually they studied, I had to read up on these wierd journals.
What made this night memorable was becasue I saw Krizna and Patring again. Both of them were from AHRC. Excluding the odd picture on facebook I haven't seen Patring / Tricia since my Rockwell days. Krizna I was fortunate enough to meet again when we both went to the Holy Week Missions last year. For what it's worth they looked like fourth year students about to take their last mid-term exams in law school. Congratulations to the both of you!, WON that's a compliment it entirely up to your interpretation. Actually it is, congrats indeed. Not everyone can get where you are now.
Krizna was the head of the Mr. Law School Committee back '07. I did marketing and logistics work for that event. Oh I also did my traditional role of 'taga-tagay' for some reason I have an attachment to being the person handing out the beer and ice tea.
After Mr. Law School I asked Krizna " 'wag mo ko kakalimutan." The reason for that was because two weeks later AHRC was going to have its interviews for its Summer Internship Program. Most of the Mr. Law School Committee people were from AHRC, I thought it was a good idea to get to know the people I'd end up with for the summer. Sadly, I never got to join that org.
Oh, about AHRC I never could decide w/n I wanted to join for the right reasons or the 'wrong reason'. Hence, I never got around to doing so. AHRC stirs up almost as many memories as ASIL.
True enough, Krizna still remembers me. For that I'm glad. Thanks Krizna, perhaps we'll see each other again on Missions. With luck, we might even see each other in court.
What made this night memorable was becasue I saw Krizna and Patring again. Both of them were from AHRC. Excluding the odd picture on facebook I haven't seen Patring / Tricia since my Rockwell days. Krizna I was fortunate enough to meet again when we both went to the Holy Week Missions last year. For what it's worth they looked like fourth year students about to take their last mid-term exams in law school. Congratulations to the both of you!, WON that's a compliment it entirely up to your interpretation. Actually it is, congrats indeed. Not everyone can get where you are now.
Krizna was the head of the Mr. Law School Committee back '07. I did marketing and logistics work for that event. Oh I also did my traditional role of 'taga-tagay' for some reason I have an attachment to being the person handing out the beer and ice tea.
After Mr. Law School I asked Krizna " 'wag mo ko kakalimutan." The reason for that was because two weeks later AHRC was going to have its interviews for its Summer Internship Program. Most of the Mr. Law School Committee people were from AHRC, I thought it was a good idea to get to know the people I'd end up with for the summer. Sadly, I never got to join that org.
Oh, about AHRC I never could decide w/n I wanted to join for the right reasons or the 'wrong reason'. Hence, I never got around to doing so. AHRC stirs up almost as many memories as ASIL.
True enough, Krizna still remembers me. For that I'm glad. Thanks Krizna, perhaps we'll see each other again on Missions. With luck, we might even see each other in court.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Francis Speaks...
This blog is called Francis speaks...ok Francis Speak... heh.
Last night I sort of made up for lost time with part of my family. My former mother now sister Rochelle and I spent practically the whole night at this SB near MOA doing what we do best... Pretending to study and well doing stuff that we normally would not have done if we hadn't come together. Now if only my other sisters could have come too... Kiev? Hayz? meh.
Kucil is sort of "former mother" for two reasons;
First she's no longer ALFG's Prime Minister / President (That um... August distinction now redounds upon Hayz) hence I no longer have any complusion to follow or obey her commands. LOL I respect the position not the person =)) Just kidding mom :P
Second, It might not be immediately obvious but I've actually matured a lot since I waltz into Arellano back on 14 June 2008. A week later I was delivering an extemporaneous spech on everything from Bush, Republican-Democrat dynamics, The redundancy of the UN security council and Ces Drillon!
Unbelievably Forensic got me to deliver another one last saturday. I hate you guys... no matter what you say I'm a mooter not a debater. I forbid it unless I can do both :P
But given my new Job Description trying to do all would be an exercise in futility... Yes the guy who never showed up at the ofc is suddenly a bundy clock / consultant hybrid! You people will regret putting me in the Psychometrics department... believe me you will :P LOL
I mean don't put a crazy guy in charge of supervising the crazy guy detection department!!! But until the others come back from N-Zed (New Zealand) I am officially the "Lord Ur god", the most senior monkey in the Kooky monkey dept.
Going back... before my little office adventures got me distracted. Hard to believe but I'm not the same creature. My recon-mode is no longer necessary since I already know pretty much what I need to know about Are's environs. I know who I can trust and with what. Ok, Francis Philopater time to be yourself, at least around family.
I mean the debate... that crazy ANC debate has spawned such incredible change that I wonder if it wasn't the Delta Aoulis shoved down my throat by God because he decided I was being to complacent with life... God! so much for a high-speed low-drag and lower profile... Still it's a good thing people know me... and that makes me a jerk because I need to hussle and know them! stop being a snob playa!
Funny for a person who can remember the silliest things (Orange and the 27th any one?) I'm sure bad at memorizing names. Good thing there's facebook. Thank God for people who take the time to Tag pictures :P
Then there is Arellano Law Forensic Guild. Mom, Kiev, Hayz and the rest. When we come together possibilities open up. Now if only studies and work can stop getting in the way.
I'm actually the treasurer now, although it should be treasureless hehe. Kiev is General Secretary or was it Secretary General. And of course Hayz is the new President / Prime Minister/ Fuhrer / Kaiser / Tzarina / Dominatrix (Female form of Dominatus or Overlord) / Imperator / Pricepes / Strategos / Sayyad'ina (Revered Mother). Oh boy!
Hayz, Kiev and I are now a rulling triumverate LOL. Together we will chart out the next course of action. [Personally I don't particularly mind where that path will be so long as it is one where I can compete :))] Between the three of us and the new troops nothing> can stop us. Now if only nothing would stop hanging around at the office...
Kucil has stepped down as Prime Minister / Treasureless / Secretary General / Mother to Forensic. We are no longer under her parental authority. Sis thanks for everything!!! Most especially your friendship, the Espresso Solo and of course the 'Crusier!!!
Last night I sort of made up for lost time with part of my family. My former mother now sister Rochelle and I spent practically the whole night at this SB near MOA doing what we do best... Pretending to study and well doing stuff that we normally would not have done if we hadn't come together. Now if only my other sisters could have come too... Kiev? Hayz? meh.
Kucil is sort of "former mother" for two reasons;
First she's no longer ALFG's Prime Minister / President (That um... August distinction now redounds upon Hayz) hence I no longer have any complusion to follow or obey her commands. LOL I respect the position not the person =)) Just kidding mom :P
Second, It might not be immediately obvious but I've actually matured a lot since I waltz into Arellano back on 14 June 2008. A week later I was delivering an extemporaneous spech on everything from Bush, Republican-Democrat dynamics, The redundancy of the UN security council and Ces Drillon!
Unbelievably Forensic got me to deliver another one last saturday. I hate you guys... no matter what you say I'm a mooter not a debater. I forbid it unless I can do both :P
But given my new Job Description trying to do all would be an exercise in futility... Yes the guy who never showed up at the ofc is suddenly a bundy clock / consultant hybrid! You people will regret putting me in the Psychometrics department... believe me you will :P LOL
I mean don't put a crazy guy in charge of supervising the crazy guy detection department!!! But until the others come back from N-Zed (New Zealand) I am officially the "Lord Ur god", the most senior monkey in the Kooky monkey dept.
Going back... before my little office adventures got me distracted. Hard to believe but I'm not the same creature. My recon-mode is no longer necessary since I already know pretty much what I need to know about Are's environs. I know who I can trust and with what. Ok, Francis Philopater time to be yourself, at least around family.
I mean the debate... that crazy ANC debate has spawned such incredible change that I wonder if it wasn't the Delta Aoulis shoved down my throat by God because he decided I was being to complacent with life... God! so much for a high-speed low-drag and lower profile... Still it's a good thing people know me... and that makes me a jerk because I need to hussle and know them! stop being a snob playa!
Funny for a person who can remember the silliest things (Orange and the 27th any one?) I'm sure bad at memorizing names. Good thing there's facebook. Thank God for people who take the time to Tag pictures :P
Then there is Arellano Law Forensic Guild. Mom, Kiev, Hayz and the rest. When we come together possibilities open up. Now if only studies and work can stop getting in the way.
I'm actually the treasurer now, although it should be treasureless hehe. Kiev is General Secretary or was it Secretary General. And of course Hayz is the new President / Prime Minister/ Fuhrer / Kaiser / Tzarina / Dominatrix (Female form of Dominatus or Overlord) / Imperator / Pricepes / Strategos / Sayyad'ina (Revered Mother). Oh boy!
Hayz, Kiev and I are now a rulling triumverate LOL. Together we will chart out the next course of action. [Personally I don't particularly mind where that path will be so long as it is one where I can compete :))] Between the three of us and the new troops nothing> can stop us. Now if only nothing would stop hanging around at the office...
Kucil has stepped down as Prime Minister / Treasureless / Secretary General / Mother to Forensic. We are no longer under her parental authority. Sis thanks for everything!!! Most especially your friendship, the Espresso Solo and of course the 'Crusier!!!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
THE Forensic party (Part 2) inter alia
Wow, after almost two weeks I get back to this topic.
Actually I haven't got much to add to it. It was fun and yet another reminder that the old life is over. There ain't no turning back, this is who I am now. The past now seems like just a bitter-sweet memory.
I wonder where the next party will be?
Well the party's over and its time to buckle down to work. A lot of parties are over and it is literally as in I'm in the office right now debating w/n to do more work or try to do some school work.
PUBCORP digest 28 or 14 depending on who you ask. Are they really going to be worth the effort? I dunno considering I haven't even bothered to start despite the fact that people have been wondering about it since last saturday.
Sige na nga, Some effort must be expended after all I can't be party of ALFG if I'm not part of Arellano Law. And I seriously doubt I can stay in Arellano law if I keep up this substandard lazy ass attitude.
Besides... I need to snap out of this dull reality and get back to my prescient dream. Come to think of it... Meybe I'll just sleep a while and wake up ready to go. Or maybe I'll wake up and realize my digests did not write themselves?
Actually I haven't got much to add to it. It was fun and yet another reminder that the old life is over. There ain't no turning back, this is who I am now. The past now seems like just a bitter-sweet memory.
I wonder where the next party will be?
Well the party's over and its time to buckle down to work. A lot of parties are over and it is literally as in I'm in the office right now debating w/n to do more work or try to do some school work.
PUBCORP digest 28 or 14 depending on who you ask. Are they really going to be worth the effort? I dunno considering I haven't even bothered to start despite the fact that people have been wondering about it since last saturday.
Sige na nga, Some effort must be expended after all I can't be party of ALFG if I'm not part of Arellano Law. And I seriously doubt I can stay in Arellano law if I keep up this substandard lazy ass attitude.
Besides... I need to snap out of this dull reality and get back to my prescient dream. Come to think of it... Meybe I'll just sleep a while and wake up ready to go. Or maybe I'll wake up and realize my digests did not write themselves?
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