A little lesson from the Avatar

Hi Feanor here, :Wave:

I just finished an Avatar the Last Airbender Marathon. I'm ashamed to say that's how I burned me 4 day break from law school. I can't help it. I was in a Man who can't be move mode for a few days. Oh well.

Anyway, my favorite character there was Prince Zuko. To the uninitiated, he was the prince of the fire nation and he was banished for speaking out of turn at a council of war meeting. He was told that the only way restore his honor was to capture the Avatar. The Avatar who was lost 100 years ago. To make a long story short, most of the first 40 or so episodes of Avatar are about Zuko pursuing the Avatar with fanatic zeal. After all that was the only way he could restore his honor.

Eventually, he succeeded in "killing" the Avatar (together with his sister they succeed in delivering a mortal blow). He is returned to the Fire Nation with full honors. He is restored to his exalted place as crown prince. Basically he gets everything he ever wanted. But he was unhappy.

Later he betrays his father and joins the Avatar... to make a long story short (again ... hey its a 60 episode series... I definitely have to summarize a lot...:P ) They won. The fire lord is defeated... Everyone lives happily ever after. The end. :))

Well not the end; his soliloquy (tama ba naman may soliloquy ang mga character sa Avatar.) was his speech about honor.

"Honor is not about positions or ranks or how other people esteem you. Honor is about doing the right thing!"

Funny, in a way I suffered the same fate as Zuko.

I also learned as he did that honor is not about the silly notions of how people esteem you. Hehe... I should know, I've tarps hanging all over school for quite a while now in testament to a piece of past glory from 2 months ago.

I'm not about pride and boasting... not anymore. My pride and dignity have to come from myself. In a way it does.

Hard to believe but the spirit of fire who said almost 3 years ago that I would finish law in Ateneo or Die trying is still alive and still trying to finish law school.... :D

Harder to believe but I've learned to live without so many of the things that I used to hold so dear in life.

But the hardest thing to believe is that I can be so unhappy despite the fact that virtually everything is in place!!!

WHAT THE HECK DO I WANT ANYWAY???

Right now I don't know... I really don't know.

Right now I just want to stop and float across the Nile.